| Author | Message |
|---|---|
 WOWMANcommunication |
Date sent: 2016/03/13 16:12:30
Hi. I kindly request that this topic is not removed as I believe I owe everyone an explanation as to why I committed such a horrid act, which I am not regretful for at this stage.Admittedly, I am dealing with this matter in the wrong way, but I think it's unfair on those who have been good to be to struggle to use the forums, due to lag or the spam. First off, I am not enjoying doing this, I do it under frustration, upset and anger. I'm not crazy like KG, my mental state is normal, I'm just being an asshole, like old Wowman used to be. I was a horrid, toxic player at the beginning, I was mistreated, I mistreated people. It was a mess, I was in a depression. I have suffered homophobic bullying for 7 years, starting before I even came out. I attempted suicide, I self harmed and still do when things get too bad. Why I am sharing this with you? Not for sympathy, attention, but so you understand. I had a lot on my mind, the arguments on here pissed me off even more so I flipped out, and in some cases quite rightfully. I have reported abuse on here with clear evidence and nothing was done, I was mistreated even by staff. Nothing was done, they had an exception on rule 3 when it was against me. Whenever I committed that crime, I'd be instabanned. It was horrid. All staff were biased against me, all/most had double standards, including Luigi. After my final ban, I was finally unbanned. I was on good behavior, I only lashed out ONCE. Boooom. Rebanned. It's all frustration. I wont be spamming the forums any more. After everything you ALL have done for me in-game I wont. Not only that, I wont sink down to the level peope have been on when mistreating me. As I write this, I become more apologetic, I regret spamming. I don't regret anything else. I don't regret lashing out, calling Luigi an asshole, (which you were acting like). I am apologetic for being a cunt prior to my previous unban. I am apologetic for the constant swearing. No, I am not trying to be unbanned. I am trying to be straight with you all. I will stick around on here for a short while. No hate, no shit, no insults on here please. Just friendliness, this is why I wrote this. Apologizing takes guts. |
 Dubz |
Date sent: 2016/03/13 17:04:17
Also, i have left the fac and handed ownership back to you. Also you were evicted from your apartment was evicted for ban and failure to pay rent. Your items are in a chest outside the shop. Ill get a mod to remove the signs and chests. I wil subsequently move out of my larger home as it is too laggy to a smaller, underground one that i have made, 200 blocks from /warp rest. It took quite a bit of work and was made for the lols.http://imgur.com/a/Ru9WQ     -Dubz |
 miketikel7 |
Date sent: 2016/03/13 17:30:10
if its a ban appeal, then -1 because you apologized 3 times already yet you still do these things. I am not believing that you have changed, other ppl might, but i do not. |
 JasonSchonko |
Date sent: 2016/03/13 17:32:49
Go away wow. You aren't a part of the community anymore. |
 DatGoodBear |
Date sent: 2016/03/13 18:53:47
. |
 Ivy |
Date sent: 2016/03/13 20:17:58
Why do I just feel sorry for him?? |
 Alfadog1 |
Date sent: 2016/03/13 23:38:59
don't |
 Gilgamesh8 |
Date sent: 2016/03/14 02:20:33
I feel sorry for him too, but now he has a chance to move on to a new server where he can start over. No prejudice, no past actions, just a new Wowman in a new world. I wish him luck. |
Gilgamesh8 |
Date sent: 2016/03/14 02:21:38
I feel sorry for him too, but now he has a chance to move on to a new server where he can start over. No prejudice, no past actions, just a new Wowman in a new world. I wish him luck. |
 Intrepid_Sanity |
Date sent: 2016/03/14 02:33:35
All you do is blame your homosexuality for all of your behavior. There are so many other ways to release your anger, rather than taking it out on a server that has given you so many opportunities for change. It's very clear you are not capable of change, and you simply need to calm the fuck down. I may not have any actual power over you and your actions, but I believe what I am saying is supported by a large majority of the server. If you intend on ruining other people's escape from reality, where they are doing nothing but having their fun, leave and do not return again. It will make the server so much of a better place. Reply to this how you want, I will not reply again, I'm simply stating my opinion. |
 helio |
Date sent: 2016/03/14 10:00:23
Wow I had shown you nothing but kindness and you have repeatedly tricked me and cheated me. I do understand your struggle, I too have been bullied throught out my life. But I was the bigger man (literally and figuratively i was bullied for my weight) I did not lash out at those who offend me, i did not hurt them, i did not steal from them, and i did not try to offend them back. Most of my life i have had to defend myself from others because they wanted to prove how much better they are than me.Instead of lashing out on everyone else i decide i need to be a voice for who can not be heard. I have stopped many bulling with non-violent ways, and some not so non-violently. I decided it was better to take a punch then to let people run over the little guys. I have seen some really scary stuff because of this and have even had my fair share of guns pointed at my head. but if i could go back i would do nothing differnt because if it wasn't me in those situations some thing a lot worse could have happened. I have many friends today who still look up to me because of all this and i love them just as much as a bully loves to make other hurt. M message here is that getting bullied is no reason to become a bully. <3 you wowman. but your actions are unforgivable. |
helio |
Date sent: 2016/03/14 10:14:20
I have stooped low enough to bully others but i learned very quickly that there is no justice in that. i have made amends with them and they became some of my good friends in life. But they wont trust me anymore i lost that privlage the first time lashed out at them. Just as you have lost our trust. you have given this same speech 100 times before and this time i hope the staff are not big enough fools to fall for it again. Like i said we love you, but we dont trust you |
 stojan44 |
Date sent: 2016/03/14 14:57:23
And people think im worse than you. Oh and wowman, That whole spamming thing, 1/10 Scriptkiddie. 'outta here. |
 L3genD |
Date sent: 2016/03/15 10:29:32
Wowman you're not sticking around here you weren't forgiven now go away you stupid spamming cyber bully. |
 Blood_N_Bones |
Date sent: 2016/03/15 19:57:17
Lol fuck off Jay. You said the exact same thing last time. Gtf off our forums. *spits* |
 Anglina4450 |
Date sent: 2016/03/16 11:12:21
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Anglina4450 |
Date sent: 2016/03/16 11:14:08
poo it didnt work oh well |
 GavinChamp1 |
Date sent: 2016/03/17 00:57:22
What is the point of you cutting yourself? Are you fucking retarded? No, your mental state is not normal, you're fucking insane. Instead of complaining on a fucking minecraft forum about your problems, go out and get help.ANYWAYS You were a cancer to the Webbcraft community, and when I WAS admin, you were an absolute dick head to me before you even knew me. Not only that, you treated others like shit, and when you were banned for it, you shit yourself and wonder why you got banned. And no, it does not take guts to apologize. After all, it is the 15th apology this year. And to get banned by Daniel, you must of really fucked up. It takes a lot for Daniel to give up on you. |
GavinChamp1 |
Date sent: 2016/03/17 00:58:17
oh and +1 Zac |
L3genD |
Date sent: 2016/03/17 05:15:42
^ |
 Chip_Bruh |
Date sent: 2016/03/17 08:29:20
Self harm is done for attention. I don't give a fuck what people say about why they did it, it's basically saying "hey no one notices that I'm hurting inside so I'm gonna make my pain on the outside so someone asks".now you may defend by saying you try to hide your cuts and scars, it doesn't matter if you tried to hide your pain or not. Self harm releases the same chemical (it feels nice to self harm, surprisingly) as eating chocolate, doing exercise, or reading a fucking book. No one come to me and say "you don't understand what it's like", because oh trust me I know exactly what it's like. Call me a hypocritical asshole all you want, but atleast i am not afraid to admit that i have self harmed - and it was an attention seeking act. I didn't do it because of bullying or anything similar, I did it because I was severely fucking beaten from the age of 3 to the age of 12 by my mother's boyfriends, i was knocked out more times then i can count, 3 broken bones, and mentally fucked up and manipulated. Currently I live with an alcoholic step dad that is the biggest twat I have ever come across. I fucking understand if you had a legitimate reason like I did, but bullying is somethig that you can put your head above and get past it. Every day I still get bullied, called fat, told that I smell and no one likes me. I have never self harmed because of it, now I'm not gonna lie, it degrades my mental health every day and makes my life hell. But I don't fucking cut because of it. Get over yourself and eat chocolate or go for a run. Want help? Fucking go help yourself instead of destroying your body and waiting for people to notice and do all the help for you. And for the record: I haven't self harmed in 3 weeks. And I plan to keep it that way. This post was not directed at anyone imparticularly, just anyone that has self harmed. |
stojan44 |
Date sent: 2016/03/17 13:00:06
^Now that's a big blow. +1. |
 Penquinator |
Date sent: 2016/03/17 15:50:18
Trigger warning much?-Trigger warning- Self harm does feel nice tbh. |
 Lerz |
Date sent: 2016/03/17 17:13:20
Woow this escalated quickly. |
 Harvoo |
Date sent: 2016/03/17 20:26:02
100% agree with chip and what he said. And penq that is inappropriate please dont be hurting yourself. |
Penquinator |
Date sent: 2016/03/17 22:03:30
I don't lol.-WARNING FAM- Just saying, it's a weird sensation. It doesn't hurt too much but it stings a little and tingles, for me atleast. It was nice. |
Blood_N_Bones |
Date sent: 2016/03/23 19:22:09
What tf.. it feels nice? Explain. |
Penquinator |
Date sent: 2016/03/23 23:11:00
"Just over half the participants said that it was important to see blood when they self-harmed, with the most common explanation being that it helps relieve tension and induces calmness. Other explanations were that it 'makes me feel real' and shows that 'I did it right/deep enough'. "" 'Therefore, a desire to see blood during non-suicidal self-injury may represent a marker for increased psychopathology.' " Trigger warning* http://whyeat.net/forum/archive/index.php/t-14356.html Read that if you want to know what I mean, I don't do it for pain. It doens't hurt anyway but the sight of blood is reassuring. |
 Echos |
Date sent: 2016/03/24 01:44:04
Self harm isnt attention seeking at all.Whenever you're in pain, your brain induces endorphins (Which are basically happy hormones) to soften the sensation. Cutting yourself makes you believe it's therapeutic, due to the hormone's releases. It's actually just your body doing it's normal functions. But people with depression are so desperate to feel happy it becomes an addiction. |
Penquinator |
Date sent: 2016/03/24 21:51:46
Best thing I've seen all month ^ |
Chip_Bruh |
Date sent: 2016/03/24 22:27:39
I am aware echo. Which is why I included that eating chocolate, reading a book, or going for a run are equally as pleasing. If you choose to self harm then you ARE attention seeking, there are ways around self harm. If no one you knew self harmed then you'd never have even knew it helped. |
Penquinator |
Date sent: 2016/03/24 22:40:53
It's really not lmao. |
 MONKEYPAWNED |
Date sent: 2016/03/24 23:11:26
Every life is precious as it is unique... wowman i can't imagine what you have gone through or are. You just never place harm on yourself and above all talk to someone you can trust and feel good talking to. I am sorry that not everyone feels the same as i do at the moment.. I feel helpless as im many miles away and have no way to express my affection towards you as a friend...some of us due care and wish you well. I don't know what happen but you must exercise restraint when pushed. Record and post is my MO. I still think you should go and talk with someone who specializes in the kind of pain you are still in. As a friend i only hope you take my advise with the love and affection in which it was given. Good luck Ol'friend and may the Gods smile upon your journey. |
