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An apology/explanation

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Wolves_rock5651	Date sent: 2016/03/15 00:47:47 First I'm truly sorry. I would like to apologize to EVERY player. I'm sorry for my recent behavior. Its been very uncalled for and i'm so sorry. it hurts me to see how bad i have gotten recently. I'm sorry. Here are some apologizes to specific players Luigi I'm so sorry. This is your amazing server. I have played on it for a while, and i have loved almost every second of it. I have made amazing friends, and i hope to make many more. Anyway, I'm so sorry. I feel that i have not bettered your server at all, and if i have done anything i have made it worse. My hostility recently have been so rude and uncalled for. I'm so sorry. Wowman (As much as i don't want to do this i feel i need to.) I'm sorry. You're banned now and i cant help that. What i can do though is apologize for ever provoking you. I might want to deny it, but i cant deny it. I have provoked you, and from that I feel may be a bit of the reason you are banned. I'm sorry. I wish you the best of luck with your life. DatGoodBear I feel as if i have provoked you too. I'm sorry. I feel very bad for my actions. (Those actions being provoking you) It was diffidently unneeded. I'm sorry. I really am. >>>I hope you all forgive me<<< Now the explanation I can't blame all my recent behavior on this. I would be a fool if i did. This is a big reason why i have been so hostile/depressed recently. Some of you may know my family situation isn't the best. In fact, currently, its not very good at all. From when i was young it wasn't good. First it was my parents drinking, which did get better, but now i am blamed for my parents fighting. I am also blamed for my moms depression. All i have ever known is fighting/yelling/arguing, and from a very young age i have only known such. From a young age of 4/5 my parents would drink and fight. It was something I would see on a pretty regular basis. it stopped when i was around 6 or 7. It was pretty extreme. I'm not gonna go into great detail on here about this, but if you would like to know more message me on the server (or skype). From when i was 7/8 My family situation got better, and i thought it would stay that way. It didn't though. For these past 2 years my moms depression has gotten worse. Like i said, i am blamed for my moms depression. (By my mom). Its gotten pretty extreme. For the past 2 years my mom has made comments like "I can't wait till i die" and "I hope i die soon." This has taken a very big tole on me. Its made me become a very hostile person, and a depressed one. My dad, i would say, is a big reason why this is such. He yells, and bangs things. He breaks things, and argues/yells at my mom. Sometimes saying things like "If you don't want to live here them move, Bitch." He's often taken his anger out on everyone around him by yelling, and he often throws things/ bangs things to take his anger out. Its gotten so extreme to where my mom is looking for a school, a job, and an apartment to live. As you can imagine this really takes a tole on a person. It hurts me a lot. It really does. This makes me very hostile, and a pretty depressed person. Although this has a lot to do with my hostility, I'm still to blame. I have thought about this a lot since i had a breakdown the other day. It hurts me a lot to see how bad I have gotten. I have really become a toxic person, and i have become so rude to people. i'm sorry for this. So sorry. Im probably leaving a bunch of stuff out i want to say, but this is the second time i have typed this. (The first time i failed when i hit enter and apparently i wasnt logged in.) Im sorry. I really am. Im sorry. I hope you all accept my apology, Im really sorry, and i hope i can change. I want to be a better player. Im struggling now. I'm going through alot. I hope you all can understand that. Yours Truly, ~Wolves_rock5651 (AKA Alyse, Kendall, or KendallAlyse) (THIS IS NOT FOR PITY!!!!! PLEASE UNDERSTAND THIS IS AN EXPLANATION AND AN APOLOGY!!!! PLEASE NO ARGUING/RUDE COMMENTS!!!!)
CONSOLE	Date sent: 2016/03/15 07:07:45 I understand. Hope you luck with your future
Wolves_rock5651	Date sent: 2016/03/15 07:26:20 Thanks for the reply.
armzngunz	Date sent: 2016/03/15 15:20:33 I haven't seen you being hostile to people, but if I saw, I'd forgive you of course. Nobody should have to go through what you've been through, so I understand completely why you wouldn't have been yourself. I hope your situation may become better, and always remember, things can change.
Wolves_rock5651	Date sent: 2016/03/15 16:17:38 Thanks for the response armz.
stojan44	Date sent: 2016/03/15 16:28:09 Seems like we both had the same childhood situations. 'cept i currently live with my father (who also works at a restaurant (10/10 food tho)) So uhh...I hope your current situations improves. If not, oh well. (My feelings of sadness and regret were long forgotten. So if this sounds too harsh,sorry.)
Wolves_rock5651	Date sent: 2016/03/15 19:52:32 Thanks for the response! I hope it gets better. Who knows. I just gotta keep goin.
Wolves_rock5651	Date sent: 2016/03/16 22:08:29 Little Update:I'm very happy to say my brother and I have been getting along very well. Me and him always would fight. (It got pretty extreme) I don't think I have been so happy these past 2 days. They have been simply amazing. I never spent any time with him until now. (I'm assuming the 4 year are difference is the cause) Me always being younger and more immature, we would never play or spend time with each other. Now he's pretty much an adult, and we are hanging out. It makes meh happy. Thanks for reading :D <3 ~KendallAlyse
stojan44	Date sent: 2016/03/17 13:01:03 Thanks for writing!
miketikel7	Date sent: 2016/03/18 19:16:26 Ive never seen you hostile? You always seemed to be nice and polite. Anyways, GL with the situation :)
Wolves_rock5651	Date sent: 2016/03/18 19:57:04 Thank you for the response i guess. I was quite rude actually, you probably were not on when i was rude though.
Wolves_rock5651	Date sent: 2016/03/23 21:26:35 If I get upset or break down a little on the server. I'm so sorry. My brother crashed his car, lied to my family, and failed a drug test my dad got him to do. On top of that my grandpa on my mom's side kidneys are failing, and he's probably gonna die here soon. He keeps going to the hospital. My mom got a call from the nursing home he stays at and now she's upset. I don't know what they said though. Anyway. Thanks for reading.